""Poets often describe love as as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That is what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you..." The Notebook-Nicholas Spark
Bookmark by Dave Kartzman
Let me be a bookmark in your life;
Crafted with our love
And the coloured inks
of our words;
A weathered parchment
of my soul
Upon your memory.
As you walk through life,
Other chapters will be scripted.
Someday,
you will reflect,
Tabbing back to the bookmark we built,
Remembering . . .
ME
Someone who wish to be none other than herself. Loves books, poetry and musics. Writing from the heart, eyes and ear.
I love poetry but i can't really write. I paintings but i cannot draw. I love music but i am a lousy singer.
Smile and laugh a lot. A happy go lucky person yet sensitive.
I will bring you in my journey to the unknown destination. You might like it and you may not...but whadda heck it's my life.
My Motto
To accomplish great things,
we must not only act,
but also dream;
not only plan,
but also believe
Ya Allah
temuikanlah diri ini dengan kegembiraan
hilangkanlah kesedihan hatiku ini
bila teringat akan dia
ku mohon Ya Allah,
kekuatan jiwa dan semangat
dalam menghadapi dugaanMu.
Aku tahu Ya Allah
setiap pilihan yang ku buat
akan mengubah corak
perjalanan hidupku.
Ya Allah, aku mohon
agar apa yang aku lakukan ini
tidak akan menghilangkan
kasih dan sayangku pada dia.
Dan tidak juga akan mengurangkan
kasih dan sayangnya padaku.
Satukanlah hati kami dalam cahayaMu,
dalam keredhaanMu
dan jua dalam kasih sayangMu.
Berilah aku kekuatan dan ketabahan
untuk menghadapi seketika detik
hidupku tanpa dia disisi sehingga
aku bersedia untuk kembali
i just got an email..a sad news. my friend DR passed away due to denggi berdarah. he was in coma for 3 days and didn't make it. that's explain why i did not hear from him. i remember in our last chat he told me that he demam and menggigil...
i am still in shock and very sad. he is a good friend. am speechless. he is such a good listener..someone who understand me because he gone through the same. able to make me laugh in times i am in sadness. he will be missed very much. still speechless..the joke he made now came true.
Alfatihah buat Shahril Yusni. Moga rohnya ditempatkan bersama orang-orang yang beriman.
memang aku ni selalu nampak tak kisah dengan yang kau buat but it does not mean aku tak rasa kecil hati. Allah s.wt. aje yang tahu betapa kadang-kadang aku terasa kecil hati sangat dengan your words and perbuatan. cuma aku malas nak cakap sebab nanti kau pulak tak bercakap dengan aku. aku ni kira asyik nak jaga hati kau ajer..kau pernah fikir tak macamana nak jaga hati orang. rite..kata-kata kau memang laser most of the time but what did i do to you to deserve all these treatments. sekali dua takpe..aku masih boleh sabar , tapi dah banyak kali. cuma aku jer tak pandai nak lash out kat orang and kau pun for that matter. sebab aku tahu kalau aku buat sure kau takkan cakap dengan aku punya lepas tu..
mungkin ko tak sedar kata-kata and perbuatan kau ni menyakitkan hati, do i need to spell it out. tolonglah we are not little kids anymore, so think before those words come out of your mouth. or should i tell you go fly kite???
it's has been weeks since my last entry...am quite busy with reporting and not to mention that my 3rd semester classes has already started. on the contrary, it's perhaps just my lame excuse for not updating. Biah posted this song in her blog..well i been hearing this song as well in my head and sometimes hummed the the without me realising. i still find myself thinking of him...oouch. cekya..u and me, facing the same thing. biah too?
OST Dealova - Once
Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu Karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu Oh karena hati telah letih
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang slalu bisa kau sentuh Aku ingin kau tahu bahwaku selalu memujamu Tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati Oh bayangmu seakan-akan
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu ooohh Seperti udara yang ku hela kau selalu ada
Hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang Tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang dan sepi, dan sepi
selalu ada, kau selalu ada selalu ada, kau selalu ada
p/s : i_mshe..congrats. take good care of urself and also the baby. looks like all my blogsahabats in s'pore will have an addition to their family and in case of Ligo, officially two kids now. How about my blogsahabats in kl.? all single still, me included.
the smell of a certain air fragrance can make me travelled through to the past. kind of me think of a place or try very hard to think of a place that have that smell. the air fragrance does that to me. often enough i didn't manage to know what type or brand of the air fragrance. it happened again this morning while passing by the neighbouring office..for a moment i stood still. ummphhh.
Was wondering about a friend when i did not hear from him...it's either he is too busy or something bad had happened. true enough..he told me that he met with an accident and his car was totally damaged. Don't mind so much about the car so much as it is covered by the insurance, most important is to get well soon.
DR, wishing you speedy recovery and this is for you.
May Each New Day Find You Feeling Better
There are so many people thinking nice thoughts about you and wishing you a quick, easy recovery Just rest your mind and don't worry about anything Be peaceful and think of all those who love you as each new day finds you feeling better - Susan Polis Schutz
with the adoption the new scheme of service as proposed by the HR 'con' sultant, i am now one of the people being upgraded to a new post..assistant manager. this will take effect on 1st July. somehow i don't feel too thrill or happy about it. quite a number of people are being upgraded to a new post. but some of them are over RM100K richer than me because the company buyback the retirement benefit (RB) up to their retirement year and on top of that they are given an interest free cash advance (CA).Not only they get the RB buyback and CA..they also have a lumpsum of money being credited to their account for that 5 years of service.
What happened to those who did not complete our 5 years of service even by a day? we got nothing..an increment of 7.5% of the last drawn salary in December 2005 is nothing to be brag about. when we joined the company, we are entitled for RB when we completed our 5 years of service..a lumpsum of money will be credited to our EPF together with an additional contribution by the company to our EPF. What iritate me the most is that we did not even get a pro-rated RB for our service as compared to those who complete their 5 years . we are not asking for the CA or RB buyback, because we know we are not entitle for it. A pro-rate RB base on our years of service will be great. i will complete my 5 years of service this august. our proposal has been turned down by the CEO. feel so unappreciated. waited 5 years and only to experience this. it sucks . some of my colleagues have plans with the money they are getting...me just listen in envy. 'mungkin bukan my rezeki'..been saying that to myself to make me feel better.
today am quite mad with the CEO's secretary. She just bought her car and got a parking space in the building. When i asked her where does she park her car, she has the guts to lie to me by saying she park elsewhere. I have been waiting for a parking space in the building for months ( remember me blogging about the parking space and the hassle i went through ) and she got it just like that.
why did i stay? i have a good boss..he very concern of the welfare of his staffs. he did call me on several occassions pertaining to my bonus, future growth etc. Furthermore, i still have lots to learn from him on the Oil and Gas. He proposed my name to the CEO for a short course on Oil & Gas in London. pray for me okay. really hope that the proposal will be approved.
KK part 2 have to be postponed unuk memberi laluan kepada pengumuman di bawah.
Congrats I_mshe on the job offer that u got. on fulltime basis pulak tu. wtl senyum sampai telinga. am very happy for you because tahu that you really need a change. hope the new working environment will make you happy. All the best dearie.
Wasn't
so happy with the things at the office but nevertheless there's nothing
much my colleagues who are in the same boat as me can do. The only
thing is find ourselves another job. We really feel unappreciated. I
thought I will manage to catch my flight on time..how should I know
that the appointment took longer time that I had expected. Was so angry
with myself for missing the flight that caused me to pay an additional
of RM 460 for a brand one way ticket to KK. One after another..that was
what I felt. Like it or not, I have to go…my luggage was already on its
way to KK. Luckily I am not alone..3 of my new friends ( 12 of us )
also cannot board the plane.
Took
the 6.10pm flight to KK was delayed about 15-20 minutes. Arrived in KK
around 9pm. Lin, Wan, Kak Zae and hubby waited for us. We are supposed
to be in the same flight. From the airport we headed to KinabaluPark as 7 of us will be climbing up the MountKinabalu the next day. Reached KinabaluPark around 1.20am…it was so cold, even the room was cold.
The Room
While
they were up in the mountain, I spent my time taking pictures of the
nature. Also went to Pasar Tamu at Kundasang. Nothing much there. It
was raining in the evening and i ended up staying indoor, watched Astro
and called it a day.
The Nature
The next morning, Ros, Yan and myself went to the Timpohon Gate, the starting point of
summit trail. I walked 3 km up the road ( imagine climbing up the road
to Genting )…af . Reminiscing the moment..it was quite scary actually,
should something to me no one will ever know. Not many cars passed by
the place. I did not bring any water with me…the journey seems so far
even though it's only 4.50km to the gate. Feeling so tired, I stopped a
car and ask for their kindness to take me to the starting point. Spend
few minutes at there and headed back.
arrived from KK last night and today i am at work. arggggggggghhhhh...i wish i don't have to work. am down with sore throat. there is a lot to tell. will do so in the next posting.
i would say the trip was worth the ticket ( missed the flight and had to pay RM 460, one way flight to KK ) and enjoyable. Apart from making new friends.
will blog about it later. till then, take good care y'awl.
Birthdate
1st Jan - Kam
22nd Mac - Azean
11th April -Ogy
16th April - WTL, Maman, Akiah
15thMay - Tatot
25th May - Amar, Ham, Ayen
11th June - Baby Isya
23rd Aug - Enig
27th Aug - Lun
1st Sept - Amran
17thSept - Kroll
28thSept - Azlin
20th Oct - Azlan
5th Nov - Dik Noor
6th Nov - Zack
8th Dec - Suzi
29th Dec - Aiez
Future Events
May - B.L.O.G.F.R.I.E.N.D.S.M.E.E.T.0.6
June - Kota Kinabalu
So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees
I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place
Chorus:
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight
She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge
(chorus)
Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think of death-it must be killin' me
Poetry of The Week
How Do I Love Thee? by Elizabeth Barrett Browning >
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, -- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! -- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
