""Poets often describe love as as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. That is what it was like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you..." The Notebook-Nicholas Spark
Bookmark by Dave Kartzman
Let me be a bookmark in your life;
Crafted with our love
And the coloured inks
of our words;
A weathered parchment
of my soul
Upon your memory.
As you walk through life,
Other chapters will be scripted.
Someday,
you will reflect,
Tabbing back to the bookmark we built,
Remembering . . .
ME
Someone who wish to be none other than herself. Loves books, poetry and musics. Writing from the heart, eyes and ear.
I love poetry but i can't really write. I paintings but i cannot draw. I love music but i am a lousy singer.
Smile and laugh a lot. A happy go lucky person yet sensitive.
I will bring you in my journey to the unknown destination. You might like it and you may not...but whadda heck it's my life.
My Motto
To accomplish great things,
we must not only act,
but also dream;
not only plan,
but also believe
Ya Allah
temuikanlah diri ini dengan kegembiraan
hilangkanlah kesedihan hatiku ini
bila teringat akan dia
ku mohon Ya Allah,
kekuatan jiwa dan semangat
dalam menghadapi dugaanMu.
Aku tahu Ya Allah
setiap pilihan yang ku buat
akan mengubah corak
perjalanan hidupku.
Ya Allah, aku mohon
agar apa yang aku lakukan ini
tidak akan menghilangkan
kasih dan sayangku pada dia.
Dan tidak juga akan mengurangkan
kasih dan sayangnya padaku.
Satukanlah hati kami dalam cahayaMu,
dalam keredhaanMu
dan jua dalam kasih sayangMu.
Berilah aku kekuatan dan ketabahan
untuk menghadapi seketika detik
hidupku tanpa dia disisi sehingga
aku bersedia untuk kembali
me and i_mshe went for lunch at sushi king last tuesday. tell you..we ate until our stomach begged us to stop. still craving for sushi. yummy. Next destination, Petaling Street. I_mshe was happy to get the things she wanted for a cheaper price.
Cekmi was first to arrive..at 6pm. earlier than the organizer. waiting
for Cekmi at the long table in front of the escalator. Purposely picked
that spot so that it can accomodate all. While was talking to Cekmi, a
guy came towards us. Yes..the one and only Rulan Awan. Later we were
joined by Cekya and followed by Azell, I_mshe and Tatot.
It was great to be able to meet with blogsahabat..for the first time and also for 2-3 times. always an event for me to look forward to. also a great joy for me to see all my blogsahabat having good time chit-chatting and teasing each other. more of this in the future, insya'allah. Hope future gathering will be attended by all.
Hope for the first timer tu tak serik nak jumpa we all lagi especially with biribiriberbulubiru and walaubagaimanapun.
i had a good time that day.
P/S : feels like backing out from my mission. like one-sided aje.
am leave today..not because of Datuk K and Siti off course. I know Lun, Lovey and Ligo are on leave too to watch the live telecast...minat banget ya?
am on leave because i_mshe is here. yes i_mshe is here in KL. met here at berjaya east wing lobby and hugged each other. it was great to meet her again. we went to Dome for a drink. They are having Battle of the Bands outside the complex and the music was loud. later cekya and zuhrie joined us. i met zuhrie for the 1st time. They just reached KL from a weeding photoshot in Muar and Bahau. Looks like Redmedia is doing good. it was fun as i_mshe got the can to meet cekya and zuhrie. 45 minutes after that we were joined by Cekmi. Cekya told I_mshe about the biribiriberbulubiru and walaubagaimanapun stories (kena bayar royalti kat tatot). Tatot and emmy were not in town yesterday and can't joint us. In my heart i wish that the rest of blogsahabat were there with us. perhaps in the future. J and Umar came down and met us at Dome. Umar was shy at first. Love his picture being taken..by our talented photographer, Cekya. few minutes past 9pm, we adjourned ourselves from Dome. I_mshe and her family, cekmi and myself headed to 10th floor for dinner but unfortunately most of the foodstalls were closed except for an italian foodstall who took us as their last customer.
Going to meet i_mshe and will tell you about it in the next posting.
thursday...woke up at 5.20am. need to be at the hotel early and set the LCD projector. brought my notebook along and thot of doing my assignment there...but because i got lots of thing at the back of my mind it is kind hard to focus on the assignment. at the same time was busy calling the webhosting company for our portal presentation...need to rent a webspace. am still worried about my exam coz i know i will not have enough time to study. at 6.30pm we took the overseas delegates to Saloma Bistro for a cultural show. It was great and they enjoyed themselves that nite. We called it a day around 10.30pm. felt so sleepy driving home and luckily i did not fall asleep while driving.
friday...today is the last day of the training session but not the programme as tomorrow we will head for Genting. After packing all our things, i headed to the office. Ouch..another headache. i got to get my quarterly bordereau done on asap as the brokers will be seeing us on monday. Furthermore my CEO will be not be in the office tuesday onwards. went back around 8pm. reached home feeling tired and sleepy. uploaded html files using ftp to the website. having trouble few times as the pictures did not appear. try few times and at last managed to upload it without having to amend the script. another night without studying.
saturday..went to genting. the weather was okay. tried the flying coaster. felt like all my was blood drained out. we made a mistake by spending lots of time at the restaurant and did not manage to try lots of things. amar, sithu and isuri tried the space shot. it was a long queue. i did not dare to try. they said it will be their first and last. at 5pm we headed back to the hotel. we said words of goodbye. It was a wonderful 5 days...i got new friends added to my list. hope that had enjoyed their stay as well do come back again. reached home at 8pm. did some revision but too sleepy to continue. asked my classmate zam to wake me up at 11.30pm. she did but i am too sleepy to wake up.
sunday...woke at 5.30am and did some studying. seat for the exam. the question was not that difficult but because i did not do my revision, i can't answer some of the question. i know i have read it but just can't seems to remember. so i just answered what i know. now i can only hope. Portal presention was after the exam. it was a relief to finish the exam and the presentation..for a while before Aya told me that we will be having our OPM exam next week together with the submission of group assignment. sigh..
now the best part. went to see the most talked about 'PGL The Musical' at Istana Budaya. Amar, Idora, Khaled and me. One Libyan guy was supposed to join us but can't make it the last minute as he has to take flight home. PGL was superb...beyond words. The ending was kinda sad. got tears in my eyes but denied it when Khaled asked me if i cried. Hihihi. The backdrops simply amazing. if i got the chance i want to watch it again. and one happy thing, i met an old friend of mine, Ida Mariana. haven't seen her for more that 10 years. She is one of the cast member..played a role of Bayan, Gusti Puteri's nanny. Love all the songs. bought PGL The Musical Original Live Cast Recording Cd. For my Singaporean friends..i heard PGL is coming over there. Should take the chance to see it. Worth every dime. After the play, we went to KL Tower and Secret Recipes for dinner. Khaled will be flying of to Bahrain next day. Someone knocked the back of my car..suffered a minor damaged at the bumper and boot. i slowed down because the car suddenly changed lane to my front. like in 2-3 minutes..BAAM. the guy hit my car. damn.
Monday...managed to get my reports done. Khaled dropped by the office before heading to KLIA. We bid goodbye. hope he enjoyed his stays here. Went out for lunch a Chilli's Bangsar. thot of i_mshe and emmy.
On sad note ~ i will not be going to London. Somehow my CEO retract his approval after the Finance VP manage to convince him. My boss conveyed the news to me and said i know you are dissappointed and bla bla bla. i don't blame him tho, he has tried his level best. he said perhaps next year.
had a very tight schedule since Friday last week. went karakoeing that nite. it has been a while. 9 of us altogether..some of them are preparing themselves for the karaoke competition in Karambunai end of this month. For me, it was just to get my mind off something. it surely was fun..we stayed until 1.30am. By the time i reached home it was 2am. Asked Khaled, our colleague from Bahrain to join us but he just reached KL and was tired. He was here for the training. the company organized a training for overseas delegates and i am one of the committe.
Saturday..went to class as usual. After class, met up with Amar and Khaled (for the first time) at Dome, KLCC. I guess now i know why Oat can get along with him well. Took picture around Tower, Thought of going to Aquaria but it has already past it's operating hour. From KLCC, we headed to Naili's Sentul..for local food. He had nasi lemak, i ordered Cantonese Kueh Teow while Amar ordered Special Fried Rice. As starter, we ordered cucur. By the time we finished our dinner it's almost 2am.
Sunday...planned to take Khaled to Central Market and Petaling Street. Since i can only do that after class, Amar took Khaled to Pasar Seni. Met them at CM and went to Petaling Street. Then we took the monorail to Bukit Bintang and went to Low Yatt Plaza. Unfortunately almost of the shops were closed. didn't know that the shops closed that early. We had our dinner at Dome Lot 10 and called it a day. another story ~ the lecturer gave us two case studies that need to be submitted next saturday. we asked for an extension since we are going to have our MIS final exam and presentation on sunday and not forgetting that we need to submit our term paper on that day.. request not granted simply by saying "you have to work in the hostile environment." kinda worries me because i know i will have a pack schedule the whole week. even am afraid that i am not able to prepare for my final exam.
Monday..office as usual. The case studies are quite long 13 and 16 pages each and we need to submit 3 pages for each case study. Went to Midvalley with Amar, Khaled and Hazrul after office. After reaching home, tried to read the case studies...gosh. what are the issue in the case studies? at the same time i was looking for a good web hosting package for our portal presentation on sunday. need to get it up and running latest by Friday as we also need to prepare the report. Iz was having trouble to upload it using the free web space. am worried now.
Tuesday...our department took Khaled for a Steamboat at Johnny's. i guessed he kinda like it. prepared for tomorrow event. get all the materials, the gifts ready. After office, brought the things to the hotel and make sure everything is in order. Reached home around 11pm and started reading the case study again. still lost. am worried about the portal, exam, term paper and assignment. all within this week.
Wednesday...out from the house around 6.20am. Need to beat the traffic. Don't want to be late since this is the first day. at 9am all the overseas delegates have registered and the programme started off by the speech from CEO. At nite, we organised a welcoming dinner for them at the same hotel and the delegates are encouraged to wear their national custom. Reached home quite late and was too tired to do revision or assigments.
i just got an email..a sad news. my friend DR passed away due to denggi berdarah. he was in coma for 3 days and didn't make it. that's explain why i did not hear from him. i remember in our last chat he told me that he demam and menggigil...
i am still in shock and very sad. he is a good friend. am speechless. he is such a good listener..someone who understand me because he gone through the same. able to make me laugh in times i am in sadness. he will be missed very much. still speechless..the joke he made now came true.
Alfatihah buat Shahril Yusni. Moga rohnya ditempatkan bersama orang-orang yang beriman.
memang aku ni selalu nampak tak kisah dengan yang kau buat but it does not mean aku tak rasa kecil hati. Allah s.wt. aje yang tahu betapa kadang-kadang aku terasa kecil hati sangat dengan your words and perbuatan. cuma aku malas nak cakap sebab nanti kau pulak tak bercakap dengan aku. aku ni kira asyik nak jaga hati kau ajer..kau pernah fikir tak macamana nak jaga hati orang. rite..kata-kata kau memang laser most of the time but what did i do to you to deserve all these treatments. sekali dua takpe..aku masih boleh sabar , tapi dah banyak kali. cuma aku jer tak pandai nak lash out kat orang and kau pun for that matter. sebab aku tahu kalau aku buat sure kau takkan cakap dengan aku punya lepas tu..
mungkin ko tak sedar kata-kata and perbuatan kau ni menyakitkan hati, do i need to spell it out. tolonglah we are not little kids anymore, so think before those words come out of your mouth. or should i tell you go fly kite???
it's has been weeks since my last entry...am quite busy with reporting and not to mention that my 3rd semester classes has already started. on the contrary, it's perhaps just my lame excuse for not updating. Biah posted this song in her blog..well i been hearing this song as well in my head and sometimes hummed the the without me realising. i still find myself thinking of him...oouch. cekya..u and me, facing the same thing. biah too?
OST Dealova - Once
Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu Karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu Oh karena hati telah letih
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang slalu bisa kau sentuh Aku ingin kau tahu bahwaku selalu memujamu Tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati Oh bayangmu seakan-akan
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu ooohh Seperti udara yang ku hela kau selalu ada
Hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang Tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang dan sepi, dan sepi
selalu ada, kau selalu ada selalu ada, kau selalu ada
p/s : i_mshe..congrats. take good care of urself and also the baby. looks like all my blogsahabats in s'pore will have an addition to their family and in case of Ligo, officially two kids now. How about my blogsahabats in kl.? all single still, me included.
the smell of a certain air fragrance can make me travelled through to the past. kind of me think of a place or try very hard to think of a place that have that smell. the air fragrance does that to me. often enough i didn't manage to know what type or brand of the air fragrance. it happened again this morning while passing by the neighbouring office..for a moment i stood still. ummphhh.
Was wondering about a friend when i did not hear from him...it's either he is too busy or something bad had happened. true enough..he told me that he met with an accident and his car was totally damaged. Don't mind so much about the car so much as it is covered by the insurance, most important is to get well soon.
DR, wishing you speedy recovery and this is for you.
May Each New Day Find You Feeling Better
There are so many people thinking nice thoughts about you and wishing you a quick, easy recovery Just rest your mind and don't worry about anything Be peaceful and think of all those who love you as each new day finds you feeling better - Susan Polis Schutz
Birthdate
1st Jan - Kam
22nd Mac - Azean
11th April -Ogy
16th April - WTL, Maman, Akiah
15thMay - Tatot
25th May - Amar, Ham, Ayen
11th June - Baby Isya
23rd Aug - Enig
27th Aug - Lun
1st Sept - Amran
17thSept - Kroll
28thSept - Azlin
20th Oct - Azlan
5th Nov - Dik Noor
6th Nov - Zack
8th Dec - Suzi
29th Dec - Aiez
Future Events
May - B.L.O.G.F.R.I.E.N.D.S.M.E.E.T.0.6
June - Kota Kinabalu
So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees
I seen the sun comin' up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place
Chorus:
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me & Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight
She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothin' left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge
(chorus)
Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think of death-it must be killin' me
Poetry of The Week
How Do I Love Thee? by Elizabeth Barrett Browning >
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, -- I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! -- and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
